My Earthly Form
While sitting in the bath last night, I couldn’t help but notice my tummy rolls. My period is due and I was feeling bloated. I’ve also put on weight because of the anti-depressants I’m taking and from doing less exercise due to a cold. Instead of diving into and believing the things I tell myself about “my fat stomach” and… Continue reading
More On My Life With Pierre
I had a long communication with Pierre last night. I asked him to show me his place in the country. I saw a beautiful house, with purple, flowering vines growing on it. I then started to see images of war, including German soldiers. I couldn’t see the images very clearly but I could see people being hidden under the floor.… Continue reading
You’ll Be in My Heart
When you dedicate a song to a loved one, the words, tune and even the voice become yours. They are yours. It’s as if the songwriter reached into your heart and mind, captured the very essence of your thoughts and feelings, and then turned them into music. Daniel and I did this all the time.
In my “daydreams”, we were… Continue reading
Seeing Spirit
A while ago, at Reverend Jade’s birthday party, we were talking about the different ways of “seeing” Spirit. Most mediums see them with clairvoyance. It’s like looking at a photograph or video with your mind’s eye. I asked if anyone saw Spirit physically, for want of a better word, meaning in the way that people often see ghosts and even… Continue reading
In Time, On Time
An often repeated saying at my psychic development class is “in time, on time”, meaning your psychic abilities will open up when they’re ready to. I’ve spent my life making things happen so this isn’t something I like to hear. I’m not a very patient person.
When my abilities started opening up, my analytical mind, due to a brain imbalance,… Continue reading
Spiritual Guidance
Even if you can’t see or hear your spirit/angel helpers, they are there, communicating and helping you in any way they can.
Our guides often communicate with us through music. In my “daydreams”, I was drawn to different songs at different times. Even though I was an atheist then, in that dreamlike state, songs featuring angels came up all the… Continue reading
Spirits Versus Ghosts
When I first started experiencing entities around me, I got paranoid. I assumed that the lights that I saw when I closed my eyes were positive spirits and that the shadows were negative. When I felt especially cold or hot energy brush against me, it really scared me. I wanted to know if I was in any danger.
Several of… Continue reading
Daniel (John)
Daniel was my first guide to appear to me and he came in the form of a little boy, dressed as an angel. The story would change and he’d sometimes go away but not for long. The feeling that accompanied our reunions was one of pure joy. We would throw ourselves at each other.
Based on the daydreams, I know… Continue reading
Hana (Sophia)
If you thought less you’d know more.
–Hana
Hana stands in front of me. She presents herself as a Chinese lady from the 1500s.
Last year, I started seeing faces when I closed my eyes. It was only when I was getting a reading from Reverend Jade and asked her if there were any women with me that I realized… Continue reading
Unconditional Love
I’ve learned a lot about love this past year. I’ve found that it’s not harsh; it’s not judgmental or critical. Somewhere along the line, I’d gotten the idea that it had to be these things, especially when it came to how I treated myself. I used to believe that if I just found and confronted all the flaws in myself,… Continue reading
Seeking Attention
Attention is the most basic form of love. Through it we bless and are blessed.
– John Tarrant
When you’re geographically displaced from the majority of your family, like I am, Facebook definitely helps you stay in touch. I enjoy the sharing of information in all its forms. My son, on the other hand, believes that most people are just… Continue reading
Crown of Flowers
I asked Hana for a message and this is what she showed me. She is putting a crown of flowers on my head. Her words:
You are my princess. I love you.
A New World
Many people believe that 2012 is going to be a very important year in human evolution. Some believe that the Mayan Calendar, which ends in 2012, marks the end of the world while others believe that it marks the dawn of a new consciousness.
The belief in an emerging new consciousness is not purely wishful thinking. There has been research that seems to… Continue reading
Surrender
Today, on my way home, I decided to listen to my iPod. I still have a strong emotional reaction to most of the songs, mainly sadness. While in the long “daydream”, I’d weave my favorite songs into the story or I’d adapt the story to incorporate a song.
These days, when I hear one of the songs, it seems to be message… Continue reading
To help or not to help, that is the question
Like a lot of people, I have concerns about overpopulation, the environment, and the rate at which species are becoming extinct. How do you manage to stay peaceful when there seems to be so much pain and suffering in the world? What can or should you do about the state of the planet?
Many spiritual people believe that the world… Continue reading
How to get from where you are to where you want to be
I had never heard of Cheri Huber but the title her book, How to get from where you are to where you want to be, reached out to me. Cheri, a Zen teacher, uses Zen awareness training to help you examine and free yourself from conditioned beliefs and behaviors that are stopping you from having the life you want. The book isn’t merely… Continue reading
Great Advice at My Fingertips
My husband arrived home, barely said “Hello” and went upstairs to work on his papers. Hours later, he was still at it. He has many boxes of papers because he rarely deals with them so this behavior is unusual. I started to wonder if I had done something to upset him. Was a problem brewing?
It’s “that” time of the month so I’m… Continue reading
Mary
Mary stands on my left-hand side, in front of Pierre. I’m not sure how long she has been with me. I asked her what her specific role is, if she has one, and she said it’s to help me with my self esteem.
When I find myself if times of trouble Mother Mary comes to me, speaking words of wisdom:… Continue reading
Orbs?
I was watching a TV program about ghosts the other night. Several of the stories featured orbs, transparent balls of light, that had showed up in photographs and videos. Although no-one can say for certain, orbs are believed to be spirit entities.
My video camera was nearby so I decided to give orb photographing a try. I did a little… Continue reading
Mothers and Daughters
My relationship with my daughter has been complicated. This year, she broke off contact with me. In reality, I lost her a long time ago. I felt her slipping away from me when she was a child and I didn’t know why. A wall came up that I’ve never been able to penetrate. While she needed me financially, I was… Continue reading
Dealing with the Darkness
One of the most difficult aspects of going through a “Dark Night of the Soul” is, not surprisingly, dealing with the darkness. It comes in many forms. Per the article Meeting Darkness on the Path by William Carl Eichman there are four categories of darkness:
- the biological dark side:
- the cosmological dark side;
- the cultural dark side: and
- the personal… Continue reading
Just One Look
I recently came across the site of a man named John Sherman. He believes that the only problem in life is fear of life. While in prison, he experimented with ways to overcome this fear and he calls his solution: Just One Look. It’s very simple, almost too simple but it’s worked for many people already. It’s similar to… Continue reading
Friendship for the Right Reasons
Last weekend, my husband and I had attended a small party held by a good friend of mine, a fellow traveler on the spiritual road. Her new roommate is a Shaman and I was eager to meet him. While there, I got into a conversation with a woman that I know slightly. Her thirty year marriage ended a year or two ago… Continue reading
A Wonderful Message
At my psychic development class tonight, I got a wonderful message. This is what the medium said:
I see a jack-in-the-box but, when it opens, fireworks come out instead of Jack. You have the capacity to instill excitement in others. You are so excited about your path that, when you communicate to others, it gives them pause and inspires them.… Continue reading
Tough Week
This past week has been difficult. I felt my relationship with Spirit was threatened and it rocked my world. How did I manage as an atheist most of my life? How did I go through several difficult experiences believing I was totally alone?
I don’t yet know what God is. I have several theories but I don’t know. I… Continue reading
The Daydreams
The original stories are rather vague now and I don’t recall them all. I repeated the daydream, just changing it a little at a time until, in the end, it varied substantially from the earlier ones. The first daydreams were based in England and Russia. I was born into a wealthy family. My mother had died in childbirth and my… Continue reading
Pierre Ambroise
Pierre stands on my left-hand side. He’s been with me since birth and will be with me when I cross over. I believe that he’s my guardian.
When I’m afraid, nervous or upset, I put my hand out and I can feel his energy. I can close my eyes and touch into him, feeling his love. I’ve learned to ask… Continue reading
Seeking the Light, a poem
Where does the Light of God reside?
It’s buried down deep inside
Beneath the terror and searing pain
Beyond the furthest reach of brain
To reach it is the hero’s path
Not all can face their own mind’s wrath
Not all will dare to risk it all
Most turn away when they hear the call
But the promise of a… Continue reading
Loving Yourself
Many therapies and spiritual practices emphasize the importance of self love. Many believe that it’s not possible to love anyone else if you don’t love yourself first. I don’t believe that but I do think that loving yourself is the path to healing, wholeness and happiness.
What does it mean to love yourself? Where do you start? I’ve been working hard at… Continue reading